Before Christ (B.C.):
I was raised Catholic. I went to Catholic school for my early education and did all the religious activities that go along with Catholicism. However, I did not have a relationship with God. As a teenager, we had a lot of rules in my house but no one ever explained why we had rules just that we had to follow them. So, when I had my first boyfriend I hid it from my mother, and when after a year of dating we had sex I hid that from her too. No one ever told me why I should wait to have a boyfriend or that sex was made for marriage and God wants us to live in sexual purity because sex outside of marriage not only dishonors God and ourselves but that cause lots of unnecessary pain and struggles.
I got pregnant during my first time and became a single teenage mother at the age of sixteen, unlike all my older sisters who did things the right way or at least gave the appearance of doing things right and got married before having children. Later I married and became a blended family — my husband did not have any children when we met. We were both unsaved and dysfunctional but we believed in Jesus and his family went to a Spirit-filled church.
While I was pregnant with my youngest daughter I started attending his family’s church. This was a totally new experience compared to what I knew growing up. One night right after our youngest daughter was born, while I was home alone with the kids because he had left after an argument, I cried out to God and said: “If you’re really real like they say in that church come into my heart like they say,” and immediately something changed in me. I stopped crying and I left the presence of the Holy Spirit right there in my bedroom.
Soon after that experience my desires and my heart began to change but my husband wasn’t ready for the change in me and he wasn’t ready or willing to change. Instead of growing closer during that time we grew apart. We separated three years after I became a born-again a Christian and eventually divorced. I went from being a married a stay-at-home mom to starting over with four small children, but she had the Lord and that made the difference in her life.
In the process of starting over and trying to rebuilding my life, I became distracted from focusing on the important things, a time I like to call her Martha years.
I threw myself into ministry to provide a distraction from the pain of divorce I refused to feel. I also went back to school to finish my degree, and eventually got two degrees. In the midst of all of that, I also began working full-time even though my children were still young and I did not have to work. In an effort to try to do things I believed would make me feel “good enough” I became distracted from focusing on the things that really matter.
Life is amazing in that we can get so busy doing that we never take the time to discover who God created us to be.
I was a mom, a wife, I held a full-time career in IT and was in ministry before I stopped to ask God the question: “Who do you say that I am?” I knew I wasn’t who I used to be but I wasn’t yet walking in my identity as God’s daughter. I knew what I liked and disliked, what I was good at and what I wasn’t good at. I knew my favorite things, I even knew her gifts, talents, and abilities but I didn’t know what it meant to live as embracing fully my identity and inheritance in Christ. I was stuck in a religious façade.
The Mary Moment™ that changed Krista’s life
One night in a worship service, things changed. While worshiping the Lord, there in His Presence, I laid the burdens I had been carrying at His feet. It was then that I realized truly, only one or a few things are needed.
In that moment I made a decision to allow God to direct my steps and to let go of everything that was distracting me from living my true purpose – to worship and have fellowship with Him, be a good steward over the life He had given me and to allow Him to reveal the good works He planned for me and who He created me to be.
When we make time for a relationship the Lord, He changes our perspectives and our pursuits, He restores our souls, heals our hearts and helps us step into our God-given identities and callings.
Relationship over Religion
It was through coming to understand the Father’s heart toward me, the love, acceptance, and beauty He bestowed on me in Christ and stepping into a deeper relationship with Him that I discovered my authentic identity and calling.
When I chose to have a relationship with the Lord and not focus on the religious activities I thought would make me worthy of love and acceptance, I realized that I am enough. My past doesn’t define me, however, I’m not ashamed of my story. God didn’t call me in spite of who I am but because of who I am in Christ. I am transparent because other women need me to be so they can tell their stories without shame and be who God called them to be.
It doesn’t matter how your story began, what you’ve been through, or what you may be going through right now when you choose to believe in Jesus and enter into a deeper relationship with the Father, He will fill your story with His grace and glory.
Why I’m here
I’m here to call God’s daughters to the heart of the Father and help them enter into a deeper relationship with Him so they can be who He called them to be with confidence and authenticity and live out their God-given callings with effectively.